I would have bought time in a rehab and got into A.A. before my alcohol addiction took 20 years away from me. A lot of things would be different. But I cannot regret the past nor shut the door on it. I am who I am today and I enjoy what I play/create.
OK everybody go, "Whoa."
"If pigs had wings..."
I think my amps were tolerable, my basses were playable, and my sound was decent.
The guitarist in our band, on a gig that got recorded, (we did that as much as possible, carting around a Nakamichi cassette deck), said, "Make our ears bleed, Marty."
So I guess I was doing something right.