Firstly Jon and Jo my heart felt condolences to you both...
I had lost my enthusiasm too, due to family bereavement and the free-fallout that followed.
My advice is to find some new music to inspire you that is in the now and has no memories attached. It's a fresh step forward.
I recently found out that this young lad exists - Ren. He's inspired the hell out of me. I recommend checking him out if you haven't heard of him. Maybe you have - I've only just crawled back out from under my rock after all.
There's no bass on this one and there is swearing, but it's well placed.