I am not sure about you being at a loss.
If you feel that way, fair enough. Do bear this in mind though; Although I'd love to appreciate things for what they are without looking under the bonnet, so to speak, it is just not in my nature. I envy the ability to not question what makes it tick.
Don't ever change Mick. We wouldn't have the sense of balance that we currently enjoy without the purely aesthetic viewpoint.