Totally feel you mate.
ive lost count of how many shows I ve lost over my 3 bands.
the ‘dark spectre’ has been looming large of late, and I find myself on an emotional reollercoaster, as I know many of my muso mates are also riding.
I know the end could be if not in sight, at least being signposted, but my head doesn’t seem to agree too often 😢
the main thing I’m holding on to is that 2021 can only get better.