I dont know what to say, other than thank you all, in very lucky to have so many people who care.
Im making positive steps, ive started therapy to manage my depression. Im trying to give up alcohol (only two and a half weeks, but every day counts) eating better and no caffeine.
Some playing oppertunities have came my way which will hopefully open doors, if asked 2 months ago id have made a BS excuse and said no, im not doing that anymore.
Importantly my wife and i have finally opened up to each otherand while too late to save the marriage, l feel we can (in time) become friends and love each other in a different way.
I feel like a light has been switched on and i can finally see clearly how this has come to pass. Heartbreaking but regrettably a common story.
Some of you have offered very kind and shared your stories with me, and every one has helped me as i grieve.
Once again, i am humbled by the generosity youve all shown, and you've taken a big chunk of stress off my shoulders.