OK, I'm probably just really pissed at having to move outta my f***ing awesome house back to my 'rents after my girlfriend has moved out to London to do her dream job, and I'm stuck in this armpit of a town, about to loose my car, most of my equipment, and my sanity, BUT:
I'm sick of what I'm stuck playing. I want to be playing gigs I enjoy, with top musicians, for money...not playing with psychos, weirdos, guitards, egos, attitudes and arseholes!
My main gig (sort of a Jam tribute band) is great 'n all, but it's been blighted by lies, fantasy-prone personalities, grudges, arguments, non-communication, break-ups, lineup changes, gig-cancellations, travel times, sickness, poor musicianship and directional changes.
My occasional gig (drunken pub rock covers) is sh*tty, with crap pay, crap musicianship, arrogance, egos, guitards, and no real ambition, but 60% of the band are good blokes.
My music reading, theory and technique have all fallen by the wayside and gone to pot due to spending the last 4 months learning 30odd Jam songs and teaching myself to sing, and I can't remember the last time I learned something for the sheer joy of playing. I can't leave either band just yet (I need to earn back [i]something[/i] towards what I've invested into these genital-warts of gigs) but I feel like killing something every time I have to get to a rehearsal, or band meeting, or speak to the manager etc.
How The Hell can I get outta this rut, and start playing for the love of it again? The only saving grace was the drummer from my main gig...a metalhead double-kick tubthumper who could keep time better than a metronome and had the most awe-inspiring ability to play completely different rhythms with each limb and make it look easy and [i]groooooove[/i]! unfortunately, we haven't heard from him for 5 weeks...so we're guessing he's left.
anyhow, sorry about the rant, but I'm f***ing sick of feeling like my gigs are chores.
Oh, and if anyone wants to know how to play any of The Jams songs, chances are I know it! hit me up and i'll give you a transcription/vid/cheatsheet for it.