markmcclelland

[color=#4B4F56][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif] [font=inherit] Quite an intense project comes to quite an intense end.[/font][/font][/color][color=#4B4F56][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif] [font=inherit] [font=inherit]A certain name may have been changed to protect the not so innocent. [/font][/font][/font][/color][color=#4B4F56][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif] [font=inherit] [font=inherit]https://marksdiaries.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/day-272/[/font][/font][/font][/color]

A Diary reader turns up at the bar to say hello and we have a great hang-out, then I head off to that Wimbledon tennis thing and have the full queue experience of the tournament's hottest ever day. https://marksdiaries.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/day-269/

Glad you got something out of that. And yes, you do want to be careful about that. Maybe it's finally time for earplugs, or playing a little quieter. But even then, once you introduce a hard hitting drummer, you're never going to get below safe levels. I used to absolutely love that volume though. Like I could feel the music inside me. I took it to extremes though. I can't remember if this is in this last entry or not but it is in there somewhere, but there was a time when I thought that if I could hear someone screaming in my ear, it wasn't loud enough. It can't really be much of a surprise then that one day I came out of rehearsal and when the ringing came, it didn't stop.

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Thankyou very much. I think I agree with you. It really is the case that me being in the middle of a s**tstorm makes for the best reading - see Day 13 of the Costa Blanca Diary, or Days 5 and 6 of it. Or the whole ordeal when it really hit the fan and I was homeless and jobless a few weeks after arriving all starry eyed in London. This is Paul's favourite passage - yes, that Paul.

You could say. And believe me, there are a few bits and pieces I'm leaving out to protect the not so innocent.

[color=#141414][font=verdana, geneva, lucida,]This current story's causing quite the reaction. And now the craziness continues. And gets crazier. [/font][/color][color=#141414][font=verdana, geneva, lucida,]Also believe me when I say I'm even leaving out some parts of all of this. I kind of felt I had to.[/font][/color] [color=#141414][font=verdana, geneva, lucida,]Although in some ways very promising, I can't help thinking that things are starting to go from bad to, er, more bad? If only there was a better word than that. Well maybe as well as apparently not being able to play music, I can't write now either.[/font][/color] [color=#141414][font=verdana, geneva, lucida,][url="https://marksdiaries.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/day-262/"]https://marksdiaries.../12/19/day-262/[/url][/font][/color]

Absolutely. Some silly errors in my playing as one or two have pointed out elsewhere but yes, an intense environment that you can only learn from. It was absolutely thrilling at the same time as being seriously challenging and, at times, chastening but that's all part of it. Elton John said he learnt the most from his early tours with hard bitten pros where you'd get, in his words, totally chewed out for tiniest mistake.

And [i]you [/i]think it came out of nowhere!

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I did do it once in the presence of a band member - not the PPs and he said - not in as serious as way as this looks in black and white - I don't ever want to see that again. But hey, it really works.

Balls.Almost finished writing an answer and didn't realise my power chord was out of the computer and the power suddenly went. So here we go again. I think the set was possibly longer than we realised and the only 'problem' was maybe not watching the clock enough and so not knowing ourselves we should drop the penultimate song rather than having what happened. There were no major gaps between songs as that was down quite well. It's even possible the sound engineer called us early but I don't really know. So I really think it's a case of just watching the clock better. I don't really know what happened with the half hour. I thought we had it timed pretty well. Obviously not. As I said, that's the extent of the problem so easily rectified. As for the second question, turn away now if you don't want to get grossed out but it works for me and has for as long as I can remember. I use tissue which I soften in my mouth then mold into a ball and stick it in. It's more discrete than big chunky latex things, or whatever it is they're made out of. I did go down the road of the molded things which I paid quite a lot for but they still didn't kill enough sound. And anyway, the ear always develops and changes in size and shape so after six months or so they didn't fit as snugly as they had at the beginning. With the whole tissue thing, yes there are sound issues but I think my ears have developed in hearing over time so I'm able to hear guitar frequencies I may once not have. This has definitely made me wary of freeform jamming in the past.

A quite epic entry with one door unexpectedly closing and another one very unexpectedly opening. And a pretty cool Omater gig somewhere in the middle. [url="https://marksdiaries.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/day-251/"]https://marksdiaries.../12/19/day-251/[/url]

[color=#4B4F56][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]A opportunity for a promotion at the bar causes a little inner turmoil. Is it really the right to thing to be chasing?[/font][/color] [color=#4B4F56][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif] [url="https://marksdiaries.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/day-247/"]https://marksdiaries.../12/19/day-247/[/url][/font][/color]

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mcnach, I absolutely agree with every word you just said there. And yes I very much do have experience in that world.

[color=#4B4F56][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif] [font=inherit] [font=inherit]The Flatmates' first gig and it's better paid than anything I've done here so far, immediately followed by an Omater rehearsal where she tells us we have our second gig a week after our first. That now makes four in the book for her. With preparation and mini rehearsal this morning, that makes today music from start to finish. The ongoing saga of the wannabe pro bass player in London [/font][/font][/font][/color][color=#4B4F56][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif] [font=inherit] [font=inherit]https://marksdiaries.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/day-241[/font][/font][/font][/color]

Hey Pete All totally on point what you said there, especially about Craig being my champion in the band. And I mean everything on point. Yes, of course a set of wheels and a top class bass rig should be in the armory. To be fair, you do very much address what I’m going to say next. In the 'low paid' job part of all that, that really isn't possible and landing here, I just needed to get something - the dilemma part of that is all covered in the Diaries actually; maybe I could go and get a higher paid job and pay for all that stuff - back to journalism maybe - if that's even possible anymore - or even just something higher in the food chain than waiter with a higher salary and more wages security. But then you lose the flexibility I have and need to do what I’m doing as well as the possibility to do ridiculously late night stuff and not have to worry about performance in the morning as you're not in till later - just about every bar person here is a musician, actor, some other kind of creative or student. So yes money is an issue and I can hear any number of people saying, 'You can't afford the right stuff, ie, car and top line rig, you shouldn't even be trying to do this.' - for the record, I think 99.9% of Diaries readers are not thinking this. As you say, I think the odds against is a really big part of it all. But to address that, OK fine. Agreed. But then I guess I've not even bothered coming to London and stayed at what I was doing even before Costa Blanca. And I'm not even going to begin to go into the ins and outs of that: A lot of it does get and has been covered in the Diary. But the bottom line is, sometimes you have to go with what you have and hope you can build what you need on the way. Either that or not go at all. I could have thought, 'I'm going to land in London without a car, without an amp and without the means to buy either or even the prospects to make the money to buy either. Doesn't look good.' This latter, for me, is where people hold themselves back waiting and waiting to hold the perfect hand before doing anything about it and discovering, too late, that they're never going to get and never were going to get that perfect hand. That's one of the cubby holes in which regret lives. I'm not going to go into ins and outs of how loud an amp has to be but I don't think I've ever been in a position where I've needed more than a 200w amp and I certainly wasn't going to be with those guys - but yes, a more expensive, shiny, big rig is more likely to impress than what I have there, especially if there's little to choose between players as you again rightly say. But then pushing it up a few levels, with a really huge gig the PA is putting the sound out to the crowd - think stadium - so even there, you only need to be able to hear yourself on stage. 200w aint enough? At that level of gig you've got the monitors as well to thump it through. As for borrowed, they didn't know that and I kind of had it as long as needed anyway. So I guess the ethos is, just go. You can build it on the way. Or, as Roland Deschain constantly says in The Dark Tower, 'There'll be water if Ka wills it.' Or as I say in a song I wrote quite a while ago, 'Leapt when there was nothing to land my feet on/dreamt without saying a prayer/When you get to where you're going/I believe you'll find something there.' I've also got to disagree that gigging out of town was always going to be an issue. Well, what people say is going to happen and what they're thinking can often be two different things. But have a look at this. It's a direct quote from The Diaries from The London Diary, Day 36, November 6: "It turns out they’re a reasonably established cover band that only plays around London, “We find we can get enough work without having to go further,” he adds." I should say here I didn't call them they called me. If I'd seen an ad for them, I wouldn't have gone for it. But they called me, I told them the exact situation, they were happy with it. Not only that but they went through another bass player, a second audition and, from what they told me, some considerable conversation. so it was clearly very thought about. As I said before, they totally moved the goalposts with Luton. Just thought of this so this is an edit I guess. I totally forgot. I did have the nice job with good earning potential with all the overtime on offer and all that. Could well have saved up on that little number but we all know what happened next. And when it comes down to a fight for survival or at least a fight to stay where you are or get your arse back to where you came from and struggled to get out of for so long, thoughts of making the money to buy cars and rigs somewhat slip down the to do list.

Hey Pete Great to hear from you and really appreciate you keeping up. I hadn't thought about the tuning incident. That's a really good point in terms of being a bit of a microcosm. And yes. Let's jump to conclusions and blame the new guy. And make an issue of it right up there on the stage. And yes. I don't know their full bass player history but you might be right there too. I mean, they took that guy ahead of me in the first audition after, as they said, some debate, but then ditched him pretty quickly and came back to me. Also, when the call to end it came, I was asked if I could leave myself on stand-by if they ever needed cover in the future. I guess that says something too. Never thought about it at the time. Also, asking me to leave myself available for cover shows they can't have been that bloody unhappy with me. As for my set-up, you do also have a point but I will have to make a correction to what you've said there. First, in the original conversation before I joined, they confirmed they only played London gigs so as long as I could get myself to and from them, that would be fine - and with London transport being so comprehensive and given how well connected where I was living was, that was a total goer logistically at any time of night and day. That is until they suddenly decided they were going to play outside London with the first Luton gig. Their prerogative and an understandable move. But to then have a problem with me for not being able to get myself to and from those kind of gigs - as was quite clearly stated - was a completely unacceptable shift of the goalposts. Until then I had been able to get myself to and from all gigs. Alright there were teething problems but they would have been overcome. As for gear, this is where I have to correct you. What I had was absolutely fine. A nice big and sturdy 200w Trace Elliot. Spot on for just about any gig. That stayed in the van with them which is something I'd done with two previous professional bands in exactly the same ballpark with absolutely no issue. And to be fair, not only did I get the amp back pretty quickly, Craig also gave me a trolley to go with it which was a nice touch. And it's too late to edit it now as it's been quoted so I can't delete it so sorry. I did a spoiler. Yes, the PPs went on sabbatical not long after my time with them ended. For sabbatical I read broke up but I wouldn't rule out Craig and Matt forming a new version of the band at some point. And they have my very best wishes of good luck if and when they do.

Meanwhile, in other news... The first Flatmates gig is right on us so off for a last minute park and rehearsal in the sun with Francesca and a flying visit from Diary star Kevin. https://marksdiaries.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/day-233/

Hey Mr Stylon. Thanks a lot for asking. Do you know what, I was thinking about that very thing after rereading it before the post the other day. I didn't want to get into the whole he said she said thing but OK. The question's been asked so here goes. First off he said I wasn't learning the new songs enough which made no sense to me whatsoever as, as far as I was concerned, I arrived to practice the best prepared of anyone with new songs - when there were new songs to be learned. The last practice, I said to one of the guys it was really refreshing to see a band come together really well prepared and he said, 'If they don't they get let go.' Fair enough I thought but then immediately thought, 'And that would be a bad thing why?' If anything, it was often me saying, 'No, it goes like this. Or, no, it's in this key, it just seems to be in that one.' Maybe with me still being the new guy that didn't sit well with them. They also cited lateness to gigs which is kind of fair enough as I did arrive at a few late as I was having trouble negotiating the transport system to new venues - and one day I got completely buggered when the timetable overground train I was waiting for just didn't come. Just removed from the timetable with the next one in half an hour or something. To make it worse, for some reason my phone wasn't working so I couldn't call them. I know that didn't go down well. On the whole, you could say, 'leave earlier.' Yep, couldn't argue with that. Fair enough. But when I did arrive late I made absolutely sure I more than pulled my weight on the setup or take down. But anyway, there were normally one or two people who straggled and were five or ten minutes late themselves. It's not like the arrival times were bang on strict and nothing was ever said to anyone. I was even first a few times and I was nearly always first for rehearsal. On one gig when I was a little late I felt so guilty at getting there to find everything set up that I made up for it by carrying every single piece of equipment to the van after. But even on that gig I was only about ten minutes late but that night they'd got there extra early and set it all up so it looked a lot worse than it was. So no I don't really know what the real reason was. Or maybe they think it was what they said, but like I said, totally refuted by me. But as I also said, it was amicable and, minor spoiler, I went to their last gig and was greeted very warmly by everyone and had a great night. Craig in particular gave me a huge bear hug and a massive exclamation of delighted surprise when I arrived. And they specially invited me to it too which was really nice. As I said, there was nothing wrong with any attitude or preparation but given my own thoughts it's just possible I was subconsciously putting things out there. I really was thinking for a while that it wasn't working out and that I wanted to leave but I hadn't been there that long so thought that would be a bit out of order. So I was thinking quite a bit, 'I hope they decide it's not working and make the decision themselves. And that's exactly what happened. As I said, it is just possible I did or said a few things or acted in a certain way to push them to come to that conclusion but I couldn't put my finger on exactly what. I think the overall vibe was friendly and Craig was great throughout all the gigs and everything but I always felt something was just a little off in general. It is just possible they didn't like all the other stuff I had going on and felt just didn't have my eye completely on their ball and was trying to make something happen for myself outside of their thing. They actually would have been right to have thought that. But as far as it being a reason, I'm really just speculating now.

[color=#1D2129][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif] [font=inherit] [font=inherit]How to leave a band without leaving a band. Followed by an eventful open mic, not necessarily in a good way.[/font][/font][/font][/color][color=#1D2129][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif] [font=inherit] [font=inherit]https://marksdiaries.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/day-230-part-2/[/font][/font] [font=inherit] [font=inherit]I've just read this for the first time since I wrote it and, Mr Pilson, it's incredible how prescient your words were. I didn't remember at all but this entry starts by talking about exactly what you were talking about. And I swear I didn't change a single letter of it.[/font][/font][/font][/color]

Mr Thud, thankyou so much for letting me know that. Really great to have you along for the ride. And it really is a ride. And thanks for the good wishes.

Mr Stylon sir, that made me laugh a lot. And guys, really great to see the responses. Thanks for all the support. This last entry in particular has had quite a bit of reaction in other places too. Mr Stylon is actually right there - not in the bonking the singer's wife - but there are times I've had to see how a situation has played out before writing about it, positive or negative. For various reasons. And you're also absolutely right that making all this public can be a bit tricky at times - sometimes things happen and I'm like, 'how the hell am I going to present that in the Diaries?' But that's all part of the ride and things going wrong is definitely part of the story - sometimes the most interesting part. A side note on this. When glancing through tons of film or album reviews of stuff I don't know, I tend to focus on the five and one star reviews - what's really good cos I might want to see/hear it, what's really bad as those are the more entertaining reviews. My favourite one star review I ever wrote was, 'This film doesn't deserve a review.' And after all, I did arrive in London all excited with a new job and accomodation and lost them both within two weeks. That and the fallout was all covered in real time. Not to mention the fact that I covered, again in real time, what was essentially total failure right at the beginning with The Costa Blanca Diary which started it all. I've really barely self censored anything and The Diary's been going two years now. Mostly I often don't talk about silly things which would invite derision above all else, like the time I went to the wrong venue. Or times I've done the same silly thing one or two too many times. Those stories can be funny sometimes but sometimes it could have been, 'Oh please, not again,' so some stuff like that hasn't been written about. I did still make it to the gig on time though but it was a real nailbiter and I actually would have been a really good read. But that just had too many ticks in the silly file so yes, it did get self censored. Self censoring mostly goes on with parallel stories that I don't think are relevant to this despite being very relevant to me and which are often interesting stories, and sometimes even mini sagas in themselves - tons of bar intrigue and gossip for instance. Then there was one major incident that I brushed over without talking about it as it wasn't relevant to this. It was quite recent actually when I said something like, 'Worked 14 hours without a break today snatching what food I could on the go' That incident was part of why but it could also have been libel city, especially given the person involved so I didn't go there. Mostly censoring goes on to protect people's privacies particularly as so many conversations happen with people who have no idea I'm doing this. But where appropriate or sometimes necessary, I do tell them, and there's a bit of name changing going on from time to time. But I can assure you my name is Mark. And I also have to be careful when covering disputes or bad situations with people. Sometimes from a libel point of view - it is public afterall - and sometimes from the point of view that there are three sides to every story - yours, mine and the truth. But sometimes I just write it as I see it cos hey, I have a diary to put my side forward and they don't. There's a lot more I could write about on that but I think that covers quite a bit of it.

Hey Mr Wonky A great line of encouragement there and all very appreciated and really cool you found something that works for you. And Raymondo, didn't Blue say it? Keep on keeping on and I'm going to have to check that thread out. In the meantime, here's the latest doings and toings. It's quite a substantial one. [color=#1D2129][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif][font=inherit][font=inherit]Kevin drops into an Omater rehearsal and sees a disastrous Blues Kitchen jam, The Punching Preachers play my area of Kentish Town and a minor little bombshell gets dropped.[/font][/font][/font][/color] [color=#1D2129][font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif][font=inherit][font=inherit][url="https://marksdiaries.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/day-224/"]https://marksdiaries.../12/19/day-224/[/url][/font][/font][/font][/color]